Nothing made me feel as grown-up as signing the mortgage paperwork for my home. There are a lot of things that make me feel old, like kids I used to baby-sit getting married and having kids of their own, or seeing 25th anniversary releases of movies or albums I loved in my teens. Making the long-term commitment to home ownership though, was the first time I remember thinking, damn, I'm an adult now. And every time I see that payment come out of my account, I'm reminded that I'm a big girl, with big girl responsibilities.
We all have little things that make us feel "grown-up" at different times of our lives. The first time I wore a pearl necklace comes to mind. Or the first time I drank a martini. The makeup geek part of me remembers feeling super grown up the first time I bought my first high-end (department store) item. Weddings can sometimes bring out the inner teenager, but having to organize a funeral is another one of those things that really make you feel an adult...sometimes too much so.
We're keeping things light here though, so I'll let you know that the thing that currently has me feeling like a grown up is my new purse.
|My new purse - it came with accessories!|
The thing is, I almost want to carry it around in a protective bag at all times. I don't want anything to fall on it, I don't want hot stinky people on Metro to sweat on it...seriously, I treat it like a baby. I know it's a thing, I know I'm being crazy...but I can't help myself. The thing about being a grown-up is, you know the actual cost of things. I mean, yes, this bag doesn't have huge sentimental value, I didn't buy it with or inherit if from a beloved relative, it wasn't something I bought on a lovely vacation with my sweetheart, it was more of a late-night semi-impulse buy. (Keep me away from the internet and shop-at-home channels on sleepless nights.) But I know its cost in terms of percentage of my paycheck. I know I earned that purse, and I think that's why it reminds me that I'm really a grown up.
I'm sure seeing those special anniversary release numbers for movies of my youth get higher and higher isn't going to get any easier, and all the sunscreen and anti-aging serums of the world will not be able to prevent more wrinkles on my face. But I hope that being a grown up never kills the kid inside of me. I will continue to watch "Awkward." on MTV, even though I'm waaaaay outside their target demo, and older than the actors who play the parents on the show. (If you like 80s teen comedies, I think you'd enjoy it too. Give it a go. I'm team Jake.) And I will occasionally check out what's on Nick and Disney. Because I like being able to connect with my goddaughter over entertainment. And I enjoy being mistaken for younger than my actual age. I like being an adult, but don't want to feel like a grown-up all the time.